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I got fabric for an apron but not thread or strap material so tonight I just cut out the apron and spent some time getting the perimeter hem rolled and prepped for eventual thread acquisition. Shout out to my dear love, light of my life, washable glue stick basting
#sew tag#making up a pattern too! having fun#it's nice to proceed through a project in little chunks and not be TOO annoyed I can't grind it out all at once#note to self: use leftover fabric for tote bag (green fabmo cotton for lining)
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speedrunning a bday gift for bb nephew hjdfgjh
#rug hooking#muffled laugh#wip#artists on tumblr#squints#honestly the difficult part is over( aka the cat) so that's good#I say speedrunning but it's in two weeksish#but it's kinda big? hgnng I want it to be an actual rug but since it's not pure wool idk how durable it would be#in the long run#which again I still wanna make a big rug for my room#so I can stomp around on it/test it out haha#being able to use the malabrigo chunky green yarn is very satisfying#also bless you chunky yarn which is making the progress go a lot faster haha#I drew a failed pattern on the other side of the backing and the fingertips on my left hand#look super bruised but it's just the marker rubbing off mhjfg#still like this style the most I think (the blended color type? like with the sea otter haha or the horse one#or like there's a big mix of textures/yarn size#coelacanth is fun but I think I got a little too nitpicky with it#lmao all my breaks between work have either been coral island or rug hooking#sort of related but there was a yarn shop I went to maybe 2 years ago?#and there was a yarn I bought there that I'm finally using up more and it's literally the softest/fluffiest yarn ever :'D#need to dig through my labels to see which brand it was#sorry to all the people who decided to open tags and got slammed with a wall of text/ramblings LMAO#edit: rip the yarn brand's actually been discontinued since 2018 hAHA
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Oooo starstruck dee has little stars at the bottom of her feet! Are they just aesthetic or would they make imprints into the ground? (like pawprints)
exactly like that! though she's not the only one...



edit: might need to add some additional dialogue to this to make it more clear, but a clarification in the interim; he knows about his own footprints. he's just surprised to see something similar already there when he knows he's only just landed. he lifts his own shoe to confirm that they're not identical (and also to reveal this to the viewer). seems his stoicism beat off the clarity in this one, sorry đ
#meta knight#starstruck dee#gravitational collapse#my comics#have had this one sitting around for *months* while i bit my nails on posting it#and then i thought maybe i *shouldn't* during the shipaganza bc it's not a direct prompt; though i do think you can read it that way#and for ~Reasons~ i needed to post this one sooner rather than later so i had to bite the bullet.#though meta knight has understandably been the second most prompted. they do indeed have the Funnest Possible Dynamic for it#stoic guy and the bug eyed little Creature he doesn't really trust as far as he could throw her (long long way)#so just to clarify this one is NOT for the shipaganza but you can read it that way if you want to#this is just a canon scene between them from her storyline. this is just something they canonically share. starry eyed idiots.#also fwiw i think i probably picked up the shoe-patterns for the knights from postitnotes7#been a headcanon in the back of my mind for a long while but i'm pretty sure i osmosis'd it from their work#especially after drawing post's designs so much for the hnkss. i temporarily forgot how i used to draw their armour ngl#and also btw starstruck deetectives psspsps#i'm planning a much better post about this later (probably in march) but i'm going to start using this tag for Important Posts for y'all#đđ#<- for the starstruck deetectives when there's something significant in the post.#i worry about making it 'too easy' but also want stuff to be accessible. it's just for fun? the OC lore game! ARG but it's just my oc.#that would be fun right? maybe? is that too indulgent? i could probably pull it off if folks were actually interested enough to participate#anyway!! go to bed starflung#also if you read this far: anon is open again! still open for shipaganza prompts but i'm not gonna be finished them in february đ
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New Age AU (An Order to Things)
Hello hello and welcome back! I... write the first part of this like a month ago and then came back and wrote the rest over the past few days! Ancha and I were talking about getting some perspective on the rest of the Castle while Night is still adjusting to his new body, so here we are! A little mash-up of what the Knights have been doing on a regular day only a little while in to Night being small!
no edits, no rereads, fuck it we ball!
(@ancha-aus @mutzelputz and @papiliovolens hello again! Hope you don't mind the random @ and as always if it gets annoying just lemee know and I'll cease hehe!)
Oh, and a bonus shout-out to Ancha because I would've completely fumbled an entire section here, but she recalled something from one of my many strange rambles and saved my life in the lore continuity department :]
âIs everyone here?â Dustâs voice was steady and cut through the chatter of the room.
Horror watched as heads turned to face Dust, where he stood at the âfrontâ of the room. The room was actually curved, a nice oval that allowed a long, round, bar-like table to curve along the outskirts and sit up to fifty people along its run. Across from where Dust was standing was the door. Where Dust stood now, well, that was usually where the King sat. They had shifted the ornate seat back and away for the time being, since no one thought itâd be right for Dust to sit in it. Even if he was filling in for Nightmare today.Â
Those seated, they were Nightmareâs council. Some seats had been barren since before Horror had arrived, a lot had been filled since then, Killer had told them that the population had seen a steep decline after he showed up. From what Horror had heard, it was probably for the best that it had been rebuilt almost from scratch. The council now was made up largely of common people. Monsters and Humans, each a representative from their own cities and townships who had both been chosen by their people and screened by the King himself. They werenât proper or well-spoken sometimes, but they always seemed to have their peopleâs best interests at heart, so he figured the king didnât mind it much. Actually, maybe their informal habits made them all the more appealing to him? Horror could never quite tell. Besides, he usually wasnât present for these unless the farming representatives were present, and today they seemed woefully absent. Normally it would be Killer or Dust here where he was standing near the Kingâs seat. But, Killer was helping watch over the King while Ccino caught up on his own work, Cross was scheduled for training right now, and Dust was the one talking, so here he was.Â
âGood.â Dust spoke up again, very shortly, as the group quieted.Â
Horror noticed Dust had a booklet open on the table before him. Horror recognized the handwriting in the pages, even if he couldnât read any of the words from such a distance. Those dizzying swirls were the familiar penmanship of their King. King Nightmare must have sent Dust with instructions, or maybe a list of topics to address.Â
âOur King will not join us today. I am here on his behalf. Trust me, news will return to him.â Dust explained briefly, and neither of them missed the way a few of the council looked between each other. Nightmare had been out of the public eye for almost a week and a half now. âAny questions?â
Dustâs eyelights traveled to his left, where a hand was raised barely into the air. A human sat there, Horror didnât recognize them, but it seemed like Dust did. He gestured shortly to him and said, âDamien?â As a prompt to get the man speaking.
As Horror had learned, it was customary to stand when you spoke at these events. Everyone, aside from the King, had a cushioned stool which tended to be easier to raise out of and sit on again. The human, Damien, slipped backward off his stool and rose maybe an inch higher than he had been sitting.Â
âSir Panther,â He addressed Dust with a slightly nervous voice, âWe in the council are grateful for your presence and for listening to our pleas, but some of us present feel that the timing of our Kingâs absence poses a danger to some of our peoples.âÂ
Damien shoved a strand of dark hair out of his eyes, tucking it behind his ear as he continued with a surprising amount of confidence for someone who seemed to be questioning their king. âWhile we trust his decisions, we find that our people are growing restless and weary without plans in place to rebuild our shelters. The last flood which passed through was not four days ago, and the letter arrived today more frantic than the last. Is there any hope that we may soon be graced by the Kingâs presence once again?â He watched Dustâs reaction as he still stood.
Dust, though, had a pokerface of steel. As long as Horror had known him he was always a closed book. Or, maybe more like he had a bottle, but broke the top of the cork off inside the opening, so nothing ever made it out. That was Dust. Horror couldnât even blame him, with all he was dealing with it was impressive how neutral he could remain. Horror had no doubt this Damien man had no idea what it was Dust was thinking at the moment. Was he happy? Upset?Â
Before Dust could answer, another hand shot up, followed by a scrambling sound as this other figure, this one to the right, moved faster. This time, it was a monster Horror recognized vaguely, if only because he believed this was one of the few noble lines who got to stay after the âspring cleaningâ as Killer called it once. She was a bee monster, one who lived in the capital, but her family resided over some borderland city. She was younger and a lot quicker to speak.
âMister Damien is underselling how dangerous the floods have become again, Sir Panther!â She hurriedly said. Across the room, Damien seemed to pale under the loud and shrill voice of this noble girl. Dust nodded to her, prompting a continuation of an explanation. âThe floods rolled through my town too, though we had time to prepare thanks to their warnings so the damage was less severe. It sounds like, though, many houses were completely swept away, and among them were Mister Damienâs family home. He has two daughters, you know that? They ended up in my town when the water swept them there. Thatâs how I know.â
She seemed startled when Damien seemed to slump over his stool a bit, planting his hand on the seat as he looked to her.Â
âMy little girls? Theyâre alright?â He asked out of turn, his voice different. A bit weaker.Â
The noble girl, was her name Marie? She nearly jumped forward as though she were going to close the gap across the room, her wings buzzing at her back. âYes! Yes, theyâre alright! My mother spotted them in our river and was able to scoop them up.â She replied almost excitedly, entirely blind to the sickly relief on Damienâs face. âMother said they were very smart girls, they had a hold of a piece of wood and used it to float!âÂ
The two seemed to silently revel in the news, Marie proud to have shared it, and Damien grateful to have heard it. Neither of them was taking in the looks of worry permeating their fellow councilmen, though those nearest to Damien did extend hands of support to his shoulders. Comfort.Â
âMm. Good your family is safe.â Dust said, once again reminding the council of his presence. It had so quickly been forgotten in the exchange of information and startling news.Â
Damien seemed to jolt at that, and he quickly made a bow towards Dust with a quiet, âThank you, my Knight. Sorry, my Knight.â escaping his chest in quick succession.Â
âGlad you brought that up. The King isnât sure when heâll be back here.â He paused a second, âSent me with a list of announcements. One was for your cities, got word same time as you.â Dust raised the little booklet off the table before him then. The leather cover, though Horror couldnât see it he knew what it looked like, had the kingdomâs crest pressed into its surface. Dust didnât glance at the pages, though. Just showed it off for a few breaths. âSaid heâs sending out a contracting team. Capitalâs best. Theyâll be headed out and nightfall to Peechrey first. Build some drainage. Then rebuild the buildings. Move onto Pinoc after or split sooner, depending on resources. Time.â He debriefed.Â
Damien and Marie were still standing, their discussion was seemingly not over. Questions unanswered.Â
âI- I am grateful that our King has already prepared, it was foolish of me to assume, yetâŠâ He took a breath, maybe trying to put together a thought. âDrainage? Should the repairs not occur first? What of those with no home?âÂ
Valid question. If Horror were in this guyâs shoes, heâd probably be asking the same exact things. Dust seemed unbothered by the extra questioning and simply nodded along.
âWould, but itâs flood season. King said drainage first so repairsâll stay sturdy. Just one fix instead of twenty.â Dust explained with a little shrug. âThose without houses? Take them in. Neighbors help neighbors, till we fix the big issues. Least we can ask.â The way Dust said it wasnât forceful, or mean-spirited, yet it seemed to make Damien stand down.Â
âI⊠Understand, my Knight.â He said briefly.Â
It seemed he was about to sit when a hand raised from beside Marie. A human woman, one which Horror did fully recognize. Chase. She was one of the people who Crop had introduced him to during the call-outs for farmers willing to experiment with farming methods. That had been Horrorâs first big project at the Kingâs side, and it had been going well so far. Slow, but well.Â
âMy Knight, if I may offer.â She received a nod of approval from Dust. âMy village is small, anâ about an hourâs ride by horse to yours, but my people live on a plateau and would be more than willing to house any of yours who might need a place to stay for a time. Weâd just ask for an extra hand with the harvest when time comes around.â She suggested, looking to Damien for an answer.
Damien looked right back at her for a few breaths, a little stunned. Horror had found, unlike many of these people, that the farmers who he and Crop had managed to gather for the experimental farming? They were good people from tight-knit communities. Visiting their small villages and farms reminded him much of home each time. Keeping crops and animals requires a lot of fortitude, wit, and compassion. More than anyone gave them credit for, usually. In moments of crisis, if he couldnât be here with his family, he would choose a farming village over all else. âŠIt seemed like Chase was living up to the high praise Horror hadnât even realize heâd assigned to her years ago.Â
âA-are you certain that is all you would ask in return? I fear that Miss Marie was correct in stating that the damages are far worse than I first described. We have at least fifty, perhaps more, who would be needing shelter and resources. We cannot push that upon your people for only a favor of labor.â Damien seemed like he was taking the cautious route.Â
Horror couldnât necessarily blame him, he wouldnât want to be the reason his town was indebted either. Though, he did have half a mind to defend his colleague. She wouldnât offer something like that if she and her folks couldnât handle it.Â
â âCourse thatâs all Iâd ask! We got plenty of space, as long as a few of your folks wouldnât mind taking turns in the lofts. Plus the food shouldnât be an issue. We mostly export the extra we donât need to other towns for trade, but there should be enough surplus to feed that many extra mouths.â Chase belted those words with a pride that Horror had seen on many of the farmers lately. Her chest puffed a bit as she placed her hands on her hips. âPlus, donât hurt that weâve got the Knights here listeninâ to us make the deal. If I tried anything tricky with it I know Sir Lion over there wouldnât let me weasel my way out of it!âÂ
Chase nodded her head in Horrorâs direction. He didnât expect for any eyes to turn to him during this meeting beyond the nervous glances every once in a while. He figured it mustâve been shocking to see him here the first time, and it probably hadnât gotten much easier for them since. He found himself, regrettably, making direct eye-contact with Damien. The man looked frazzled still. Like he was regretting bringing up the topic at all.Â
âMm. Sheâs right.â He agreed, hoping it sounded half as light-hearted as heâd meant as it echoed from under his mask. âItâs⊠also a fair trade. Harvest season getsâŠâ He lifted a hand a bit, searching for the words he was looking for. âBusy. Messy, when there are too many fields to harvest and not⊠not enough skilled hands to pick. Risk losing a lot of crop toâŠâ Again he paused, but for a shorter span. âOver-ripening. Or drying out. Been trying to find a good way to gather it all for a few seasons now, right?â Horror finally broke his stare with Damien to glance over to Chase.Â
She seemed to be beaming from over where she stood. She ran a hand through her short-cropped black hair with a slight laugh.Â
âExactly, My Knight! So, not entirely an unselfish offer, but we scratch your back, you scratch ours! Itâd do us a big favor seeinâ if getting more hands to help would really gather it all or if weâre gonna need to downscale.â She went between the two, though after looking to Horror again, she seemed to realize that the both of them had gone off-topic from the point of the question. The farming meeting was set for about a month from now, this was the civilian-based meeting. They could save shop talk for then.Â
In her resounding silence, eyes all turned. Not to Damien, but to Dust. Normally itâd be Nightmare making this choice, of course, but instead? Today it was him.Â
He seemed to look at the parties in question. He was calm. At some point heâd opened the little journal, but kept it flat on the desk away from any prying eyes of the council. He seemed to consult it shortly, and the roomâs silence spanned on for nearly a minute as he seemed to debate silently with his thoughts.Â
Then.
âSince the offer is made, it falls in guidelines for aide. The King trusts all of the council, but Chase still needs to draft a contract.â He finally announced. âMovement can begin if Damien agrees. Sign the paper later. After the King looks it over.â He said with hardly a moment more of hesitation.
Damienâs mouth was agape for a moment, before he nodded.Â
âI- Yes. Thank you My Knight, Miss Chase, Miss Marie. I will agree to your offer to aide, and we will discuss the specifics after the meeting adjourns.â He finally decided.
Chase seemed thrilled. The woman was surely happy to have a whole new townâs-worth of new able-bodied souls to help her manage her crops, even if it was just for the harvest for one season. Horror and her both knew that this would put her ahead of schedule from the other farms by a bit. More progress did mean more attention from him and Crop, more notoriety for their village, and more trade incoming and outgoing. Plus, Chase was the kind of woman who insisted a little bit of manual labor was healthy for the soul. She was already getting her hands on that parchment used by all the council members to plead their cases to be reviewed by the King.Â
When all was quieted and both Damien and Marie also seemed to have begin writing, though theirs were on regular paper (letters maybe?), Dust allowed a moment of quiet before he reintroduced their topic for the day. And⊠was immediately interrupted by another raised hand from a new corner of the meeting room.
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âHow⊠do you do it?â Horror asked quietly, lifting his axe from the sling along his back.Â
Dust glanced at him. Horror could tell, the tilt of his chin meant he wasnât following.
âI mean. Talk in front of all those people. Think of good answers to their questions so quick. Youâre so calm.â He clarified.Â
âMm.â Was all Dust said for a second.Â
Theyâd been out of the council meeting for a few hours now. Dust had rushed off post-meeting to see Nightmare. As much as they all knew Dust was the king of paperwork, especially contracts, Nightmare had made him promise to let him at least read over each one so his stamp was proper. (They all knew that meant heâd take the fall if anything went wrong for either party, too.) So, despite their King being so tired and busy with his whole⊠being a teenager thing? He was still triple-checking legal documents in his study.Â
When that was finished Dust had gone off to check the stables and now he was back inside. In the training room, to be more specific. Heâd been trying to make sure his magic was under control. His storm. Horror figured he was nervous, with Nightmare being so young now. They all needed to be on their toes. Horror had wanted to come with him, because he needed to sharpen and polish his axe. And ask him that question.
âBlack Market boss.â He replied evenly, tugging his hood over his head a bit farther than it usually sat.Â
Of course Horror knew about that. It had been very obvious when heâd first showed up. Back then, Dust was still wandering around in his shackles and being used as a walking map to find every black market location. Sure, he figured that the stress of a job like that, plus the paperwork involved, had to have prepared him for something like this, but⊠Horror was the last one to forget that past of his. He meant something else.Â
âDidnât mean that.â He said with a little huff. âMeant. Like. You think how the King would. I could⊠make choices that I liked. But. Not the same way Nightmare would. You know? You think of everything.â He elaborated a bit more.
Dust stood beside him as he plopped down onto one of the benches to the side of the training room. Dust would need all the floor space to practice his spells, and sharpening and cleaning his monster of an axe didnât need much space at all.Â
âSame morals?â He replied deadpan with a shrug.Â
Dust was already moving out onto the big open floor to begin his summons, but he clearly heard it as Horror let out a laugh, because his steps got a bit lighter.
âYou ass! I saw you send me a look about the Cherris rep. You wouldnât have⊠said yes to her on your own.â He accused, almost playfully. He liked when his small friend set his shoulders. It meant he was trying not to laugh about something. Dust didnât turn towards him.
âShe asked for⊠a lot. Already gets a lot of support.â He replied shortly.Â
Quickly after his words, Horror was graced with the vision of Dustâs magic igniting across the room.Â
It was always in bright flashes. Sometimes manifesting as crooked, broken, brittle bone attacks with an electric taste in the air and a scorch mark left on the floor. Others, it showed up like a streak of lightning arching quickly from Dustâs fingertips or from the sky to strike wildly in any direction. It always had this deadly purple hue to it, and his one eyelight always flashed with vibrant colors just for a spilt second before it would fade back to that pale white/greyish color he sported normally.Â
Dust didnât like to talk when he was fighting or training, unless it was Killer. It seemed that would be his answer for now, which didnât really help his curiosity in the slightest. It almost made him wonder more, but lucky for the both of them, he wasnât a very pushy person. If Dust didnât want to talk about it, there would be no talking.Â
So, Horror took this time, with the ambient zapping noises of his fellow Knightâs magic as his soundtrack, to properly care for his axe. It was a nice, calming, repetitive task that helped chase away building headaches and distract him from worrisome thoughts. It was times like these when he could really take a moment to think about things he hasnât in a while. Like, for instance, his family back home.Â
Almost two weeks ago, only days before the Kingâs reverse-ascension, heâd gotten a letter from his mother. It was written in their foreign tongue, the only writing all the family could recognize and the only language which most of them spoke. It had detailed how his brother was doing well, managing their own experimental patches well and how his studies to learn more of Orchan, the dialect spoken by the people here, had been going by quickly. He was already planning to send a letter to him apparently. Though, his mother had insisted he not mention that when they meet again because it was meant to be a surprise. It also sounded like their old farm dog had finally had her last litter of puppies. They were going to move her into someoneâs house and off the fields soon, once this batch of pups grew old enough to protect the livestock on their own. Horror knew how much that old dog deserved a nice retirement treat. Warm bed and shoes to chew on when sheâd get bored.Â
He ran a cloth along the broadside of the axe blade, away from the sharp bits for now. He liked getting the side shiny enough that he could spot a silhouette, but not enough that he could see his own reflection.Â
âŠHonestly, he wanted to visit his family. He wanted to visit his family with the King in tow, though. The plan had been to ask him about another visit soon, because his entire village adored the King just like he did. His mother once swooned to him about how âawkward and kindâ the King was when he sat with everyone at dinner. His dad liked the way Nightmare tried to hold back his joy at the taste of their home-cooked meal theyâd served to him. The Kingâs poker face had hardly broken for a moment, but the curling of those tendrils of his had been hard to miss.Â
He just thought itâd be nice to bring Nightmare along. Plus, then, his family would be much less likely to try and baby him. Heâd be on the clock as a guard, even if the King wouldnât say so.Â
It would have to happen another time, though. Maybe heâd invite Crop instead. Have him examine ground zero for this entire project of theirs? Thatâd be nice, itâd keep his family occupied by talking technicalities with Crop⊠but then Horror wouldnât get nearly enough time with Crop all to himself⊠Maybe-
âWorried for him.âÂ
Dustâs voice snapped Horror out of his thoughts with a jolt.Â
Dust stared at him, only a little apologetic at giving his large friend a heart-attack. He was stood right past Horrorâs axe. He mustâve stopped polishing a while ago. Dust looked like heâd worked up a sweat, the room felt at least 10 degrees warmer, and the floor and some walls had distinct scorch marks all along the stone in various locations. How long ago had Dust stopped training? He hadnât even heard the zapping end, so lost in his own head.Â
âWhat?â Horror asked, confused now.Â
Dust frowned slightly, though he tugged his mask back over his mouth.Â
âBeen learning his process for years. Only doing it now because Iâm worried.â He said.Â
He moved to sit beside Horror on the bench, and Horror twisted to look at him. Waiting for any more insight into Dustâs thought process.Â
âHe looks tired. Can see the bags under his eyes. Missing words too. Trouble focusing, looks confused sometimes.â He explained. âDonât think heâs dumb, real genius kid. Just⊠the whole â13 year old brainâ is getting to him. Donât think heâs sleeping much either. Itâs a lot.âÂ
Dust looked a little pained to be saying it outloud. Horror knew he was just speaking his mind. Trying to find a good way to say that he was rightfully worried for the Kingâs wellbeing.Â
Ever since the incident, Horror hadnât been around the King much. Not by choice of course, every bone in his body wished he could just wrap his young employer up in his arms and make him go out to the courtyard to play catch, just like he used to do with his older cousins as a kid. It just⊠it just made sense for him to remain vigilant and focused. Ccino and Killer and Dust seemed to have things covered with the Kingâs personal interactions. Horror and Cross had just been tasked with keeping face and continuing training best they could. Nightmare hadnât even been coming to supervise trainings. So, Horror could barely say anything to Dustâs description.
The only thing Horror knew was that Dust wasnât one to worry unneededly. Like, when he and the King returned with that Mage. Error? Heâd seemed worried about the kid, but after a few days he relaxed again, because it was safe and that kid seemed genuinely happy. If Dust thought something was up with the King, Horror would believe him without doubt.
âMm. Good thing. You learned, I mean.â Horror replied carefully. âProbably a lot likeâŠâ Hmm, maybe he didnât want to say that out loud. Would that be rude?
A beat of silence passed between them.
âYeah.â Dust just said quietly.Â
Of course Dust knew what he was about to say. Comparing the Kingâs rewind to his own skull injury. Granted, his happened when he was a kid, but even now it made things harder. Harder to think, to remember, to see, to process things. Heâs had time to get used to it though. Nightmare was just hit by similar issues so suddenly, and no physical wound to soothe either. Their king was smart and prepared. Horror could bet he didnât want to lose that feeling. To lose⊠everything heâd been doing here. Just like that.Â
âDonât want to, though.â Dustâs voice was still quiet and even.Â
Horror tilted his head at him curiously.Â
âTalk. In front of others.â He clarified with a shrug. âWas nice being a Knight. Quiet before. âŠBut I want to help. Kingâs too young to act alone.âÂ
Dust sighed after those words.Â
They all could have said the same things about themselves in the past. Horror remembers the first time Dust discussed his early days out on the streets. He was too young to put himself into those situations. Then again, Killer had been too young for any of the shit he was put through. Same with what he heard from Cross. Even he shouldnât have really been the sole communicator for his entire family in his youth. There had been a few close encounters in those early years thanks to angry customers.Â
There was no time to really think back on it, though. In the moment now, Dust was right. The King was having that crisis in real time. They all needed to face the music and help take on some of the weight, especially after all Nightmare had done for them. Was still doing for them.Â
âThink thereâs⊠something I can do? To help you with the meetings?â He paused, and Dust didnât say anything so he continued. âOr help the King?âÂ
He hadnât exactly been doing much. Killer and Dust had taken on most of the responsibility, and Ccino⊠that poor guy, Horror wasnât sure how he was managing everything he was. Killer gave them a breakdown once of all the shit he technically oversees as the âHead of Houseâ and stars was it way too much. And Cross was still a rookie, so he got why Nightmare hadnât assigned any big stressors to him. Horror was capable though, and he hoped the King wasnât-
âNext few weeks. He canât meet the farms. I dunno how he runs those meetings.â Dust once again sliced through his thoughts with his even tone. â âsides. You stayed, didnât do your missions. Watching out for Cross. Think Night likes having us close. Already helping a lot.âÂ
Right. When Dust says it like that, it made his whole lot of nothing sound like everything. Sometimes he forgot Dust was an older brother. Horror chuckled a bit, and he couldâve sworn Dustâs cheekbones rose ever so slightly with the twitch of a hidden grin. He shouldâve known better anyhow, Dust always knew just the right information. It was why Night hired him in the first place.Â
âYouâre doinâ well. Keeping things moving smooth. Iâm sure the King appreciates it.â Horror voiced, before he sighed and hoisted himself to his feet. His axe was definitely done. Heâd sharpen it another day. âMaybe,â A grin appeared on his face. âWhen heâs better, we can assign Kills to talk instead.âÂ
In hardly a moment, a silent moment, Dust was at his side now standing. He raised a doubtful brow at the suggestion.Â
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What is he doing? What is he doing? Â
Oh, this felt so, so odd! He wasnât- he shouldnât! Well, he was ordered to, but still! He-
âCross?âÂ
Cross jolted as he looked up from where he had made a poor attempt at excusing himself from the group outside. Heâd insisted he had important business, he was sure he sounded convincing⊠until heâd walked through the nearest door. Which happened to be one of the weapon storage closets out amidst the training grounds.Â
Now, as he turned to face the person who had spoken, he found that there was someone standing in the doorway. A familiar someone. A human with an impressive beard and dark tanned skin and scars tracing across his cheekbones ever so faintly and kind eyes with a few wrinkles under them. From age or stress, Cross wasnât entirely sure.Â
This was Captain Rogers. The Kingâs first in command who watched over all the royal guard as well as castle security. The man who had personally guided the batch of recruits which Cross had snuck in with during his spying mission hardly two years prior. The man who, he had swiftly learned, had seen through him very quickly and had purposely placed him with Shep as his guide. That damn liar. Captain Rogers was sharp, and skilled, and trustworthy.Â
As far as he knew, the Captain had been around longer than Killer. At least, thatâs what Killer had told him when he asked. He also had mentioned, and Cross had noticed, he was friends with the Head of House. Cross guessed that made sense. The captain had ensured Ccino be introduced as an important person within the castle very early on in their work here, and he had been proven very very right.Â
Maybe it was that reputation Cross had seen true with his own two eyes during his stay that led him to not ask the Captain to leave as he eased his way into the weapons storage and gently closed the door behind him. He wasnât a threat. Especially if the King trusted him with Ccino. He could know that much.Â
âIâm not looking to disturb your business here, but I wanted to see if I could be of any assistance.â The Captain offered loosely.Â
Heâd been kind since Cross was pardoned by the King and allowed to train. His first few weeks when he fought against the Captainâs own soldiers? He and the King had both been patient with him. Something about being in combat like that again⊠it had brought out the worst in him. An old wound reopening in his chest like an empty chasm. He was pretty sure the King never explained to the Captain why they would suddenly stop mid-round, but Cross figured he could see the change as well as Nightmare could feel it. Theyâd only kept that up a few weeks until he was deemed too high of a skill level to continue training with the soldiers. Heâd been moved to private training with the Knights not much later than that. Only saw the Captain in passing ever since.Â
If nothing else, that time under his guidance had taught Cross that he was a man who knew how to speak with others. With security for himself and what he does, a pride in his work. He didnât act maliciously. Perhaps only in jest or retribution to those who deserved it. He wouldnât follow Cross in here if he hadnât noticed him acting weird.Â
That mortified him.
âThank you. For the- for the offer, Captain Rogers.â Cross replied hurriedly, realizing heâd already been staring for a period of time that felt too long. âThough Iâm not sure thereâs anything that can be helped.â
The Captain was silent for a few breaths, but he did wander deeper into the shed to join Cross before the stand which he had decided to stop at in his rush to get out from the scrutinous eyes of the soldiers out there. He turned away. He could easily see the reflection of the Captain on the steel surfaces of the longswords heâd stationed himself in front of. Of course heâd stopped near the long swords. He was so predictable.Â
âIâm not so sure about that, kid. Iâve seen time again how the helpless can be helped in these recent years.â He said quietly. Part of Cross knew that, with their ranking, in some ways they were meant to be equals. It never seemed that way, though. Maybe that was why Crossâ nerves were on fire. âSo if I can help, Iâd like to offer it to you.âÂ
Yeah. From what Cross had seen of the people in this castle in these two years, it made sense to him now more than ever that Nightmare would keep people like the Captain around for so long.Â
WaitâŠ
âHave you⊠spoken with our King recently?â Cross had to know.Â
After all, he hardly saw Nightmare interact with his own soldiers. He devoted much time into his Knights, but those in lower rank hardly saw him. He didnât seem to know their names as well as he did the servants. Did he leave all business up to the Captain for the sake of trust? Was there something he had been missing?Â
He saw as the Captain glanced towards the closed door, and his eyes skimmed the rack of weapons. Checking for any signs of life in the reflection. His eyes only landed on Cross, staring right back at him in the shining steel.Â
âNot directly, no. Though I have heard word from Ccino as to how he is fairing. Seen him pass by in the night a few times. He seems to be doing well, considering it all.â He voiced, his voice almost dropping to an inaudible whisper. Cross had to stop breathing to be able to hear him. âI know you see him regularly. Iâm glad for that.âÂ
Cross nodded, mostly to himself. Yes, he figured that the Captain would know. Why else would he agree to let Cross back out among his men so easily? The King was in danger if he didnât train these monsters.Â
He took a slight breath from the silence, drinking in the scent of cleaners and musty wood.
âI wish Killer was in charge of thisâŠâ He muttered to himself, dragging his hand up to his skull to place pressure to his sockets with the heel of his palms.Â
And he nearly jumped when the Captain let a laugh fall from his mouth. It was subdued, but hardy enough Cross practically felt it bounce around in his ribcage alongside his racing soul.Â
âYou truly believe Sir Killer would have better luck with something like this?â The Captain questioned, a slight smile still present after his raucous laugh had scared Cross to the bone. âNo ill will, of course. Just⊠think on it. Truly.âÂ
Cross, part of him, felt an indignation on Killerâs behalf. For a moment he wondered if the Captain was being rude towards the Knight. The oldest of them, the most skilled, the one who stood at King Nightmareâs side. Though it only took half a second for him to recall. No, he was actually right. He couldnât picture Killer out there on the training grounds, trying to teach swaths of people at a time. To dodge, too. Killer was a very aggressive fighter and only fled when he truly needed to. Even then, most of that work belonged to his beloved steed Granite. Killer was not the type to teach fighting lessons to a crowd.Â
Though, he wondered how the Captain had come to a conclusion like that. Cross had heard that Nightmare had sparred with the Captain before. Only a few times, not even close to the kind of intense training which the Knights had to go through. That he had been training. Before Nightâs change, of course. From what heâd been told. The Captain had only lasted hardly a minute. One, very impressive, minute, but still. There was no way heâd ever sparred against Killer.
âNo⊠You are right, Killer wouldnât be the best option here.â He admitted. âThough I get the feeling that one of the Knights would be a better fit for this sort of trainingâŠâ
Of course, it went unsaid in the silence which followed that, well, the other Knights were too busy to do something like this. Dust was leading every meeting Nightmare had scheduled, and planned to continue for as long as he was needed. Killer was busy staying by the Kingâs side and taking on the Kingâs usual commoner communications. Figuring out what little issues were good to be dealt with how. As well as âcleaning outâ the dungeon. Cross was pretty sure they didnât keep as many criminals as they had in the past, even when Cross was among the cells those two years ago it hadnât been very crowded. He had a feeling that the more dangerous and violent of those below the castle had been swiftly dealt with by Killerâs blade. Horror he was pretty sure was preparing. The two of them had spent a lot of time by each otherâs sides those first few days, when the King was asleep or waking for only short periods before returning to sleep. After, though, Horror received his orders to cancel his missions and prepare for the upcoming harvests which would need to be guided and recorded over the fall. Cross⊠Cross had only been asked to continue his training with Horror when their schedules fell in line, and to work with Killer to settle any local matters.Â
He didnât mind it so far, there had been very little to do, though. He worried heâd been sidelined. Sent to do the unimportant tasks because he wasnât capable enough. Nightmare had smiled at him, but he seemed distressed. Cross was too, then.Â
There was no way the King had chosen him to do something like this. Teach others. He couldnât do that.Â
âWell, it is a shame that you think like that. You were recommended to me for this training, you know?â The Captain crossed his arms. âBy several someones, actually. Training the soldiers may have been my idea, but you were who many pointed to when I asked for assistance.âÂ
Cross blinked at those words in confusion.Â
Who could have possibly suggested he do something like this?Â
âI find that hard to believe.â He said. Heâd meant it to sound a bit more joking, but it looked like itâd come out more genuine. The Captain furrowed his brow in response, and Cross attempted to backpedal, raising his hands a little. âI mean! Kidding! Just kidding!â Though his awkward chuckle obviously wasnât contagious.Â
âLook, Cross.â He huffed after those words. âIf you really donât want to do this, I can always ask for a hand from someone else. I bet Horror would do it in your stead if we reached out to him.â He offered.Â
Was- was the Captain really just going to let him slip away from this? He was kind. Incredibly so.Â
He wondered how it would feel to just accept. Hand off the stressful duty to Horror. Horror knew these people better anyhow, they had trained early on before Nightmare decided to offer him a position as Knight. Horror still spoke with most of them regularly. Cross, on the other hand, evaded eye contact like a kicked puppy. It would be so easy to just let Horror take over before he had to do his meeting things for the harvest season. It would be so convenient. So easy.Â
âNo. Iâll do it.â He said quickly.Â
The Captain raised a brow, but Cross was already moving past him. Towards the door.Â
âSudden change of heart?â The Captain questioned from behind him.Â
Cross took a deep inhale. One to center himself as he outstretched his hand and placed it on the knob leading back outside.Â
âI donât think Iâm any good at leading or teaching, thinking on it makes me sick to my stomach⊠but the idea of making the others take on another responsibility is ten times worse.â He practically spat.Â
No, he was not happy about this. He shoved open the door to the shed and drew his sword as he walked back towards the warm-up field where the soldiers had occupied themselves by whacking dummies with their weapons. He wanted nothing more than to turn away, out of the beating sun and watchful gazes of these people who he once hid among. He couldnât though. Not when everyone else had some way to help. If this was Crossâ new duty, heâd do it with all the confidence he could muster.Â
⊠Besides. They were training for fast-reaction magic attacks. He was literally the only choice for this. Heâd just have to make his own training regime this time around. He could do this.Â
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Killer had done a lot of odd jobs in his past. Most of them involved stealing. Or threatening. Or killing. He had to get his name from somewhere, after all. Even so, running into town to pick up Ccinoâs fabric order hadnât been something heâd ever expected to be on his resume.Â
The King was having one of his rough days. Killer hadnât often been able to see them first-hand back in the day, but he knew they were very much there. The days he would lock himself away in his study, the Head of House the only one allowed to enter, bringing with him a cup of tea or a platter of small snacks. Staying inside for hours at a time on occasion. Killer had often guarded the door if nothing else, but the walls were thick. He couldnât often hear the low murmuring voices within.Â
Now, that the King was miniscule, Killer had been allowed to spend more time around both the King in his private spaces, as well as around Ccino. He was grateful for both opportunities. Though, today the King had looked exhausted. Heâd been up for a few days trying to make that magic spell he found work, to make his eye cyan again. He wasnât saying anything, but Killer figured it was draining his magic more than he wanted to admit. And earlier, when Dust came to deliver those reports from the meeting, Ccino had asked the two of them to stay for a while so he could collect a delivery. Only⊠Nightmare nearly flung himself out of his seat when he heard Ccino suggest he was leaving. The King didnât outright say anything, but all of them knew those wide sockets were pleading. A silent beg to stay. Which was quickly followed by stray tears that he hastily noticed and covered with his sleeves.Â
Emotions. He hadnât thought the King had been such a crybaby before. Maybe he hadnât been. Killer couldnât blame him though. If he had to go back to being 13, with the awareness of his 13 year old self? Yeah. No. Heâs pretty sure he wouldnât make it a day. It was just that he was a crying a lot. The slightest little things would make his sockets well with tears, and then heâd try to insist he was okay and didnât need help. Even when he would still bury into Ccinoâs arms the moment they came in contact.Â
That was what had happened. Ccino returned to the Kingâs side, and the King immediately clung to him, muttering apologies. Insisting he go out anyways. What he reacted poorly and should be able to handle himself.
Killer had looked to Dust, and Dust had just nodded at him.Â
âIâll go get the order.â Killer had offered stupidly, a little too eagerly, into the open air.Â
Both Nightmare and Ccino had seemed startled, but when he promised he wanted to run into town anyways (he hadnât) they relented and Ccino gave him the details. Dust offered wordlessly to stay and watch over the King and head of House in Killerâs absense. He knew Killer all too well. Heâd have to thank him with a drink sometime.
Those tears. They just made him uncomfortable. He wasnât good with emotions, especially not sadness. He doesnât know quite how to fix crying. Itâs not his thing.Â
It just made sense for Ccino to stay and Dust to watch over them. His big brother senses mustâve been strong today, and his patience plentiful.Â
Heâs run to the shop, of course. A tailor shop owned by a pretty skeleton just off from the capital square. He hadnât seemed excited to see Killer, even with that mask. A nervous energy rolling off his shoulders as he reluctantly gathered items from behind the desk and packed them carefully into the bag which Ccino had sent him with to carry the items. Heâd asked about Ccino. Whether he was okay. Killer had just told him that Ccino was busy so he was running errands. They hadnât had much more to say beyond that.Â
Now, he was back in the castle, ready to present Ccino with his prize, and see if the King had been able to calm down at all.Â
âMy lord?â He called out as he opened the door to the study with an easy swing of wood on heavy hinges. Slipping inside was no problem, but heâd be stupid to deny that he was confused when he didnât spot the little monarch sitting behind his too-big wooden desk piled high with paperwork.Â
âKiller,â He sure knew that voice! His head swiveled until his vision fell to Ccino, sitting on one of the couches. Dust was nowhere in sight. âPerfect timing. Dust just left to meet with Horror to train⊠How was your trip to town?âÂ
Ccino, polite and reserved as always. It made Killerâs gut twist just a little. At the distance. His soul certainly wriggled in place as he made his approach, bag clutched by one hand at his side.Â
âNot bad. Couldâve done with a little more action!â He joked, though as he got closer, he lowered his voice and the laugh trying to come to him simmered back into his cheshire grin. âYour little friend from the shop asked about you.âÂ
As Killer rounded the largest couch to stand just across the low table from Ccino, he noticed what he hadnât prior. The King was curled up with his back to killer, arms loosely hugging to Ccinoâs middle, his face buried against Ccinoâs apron. A blanket normally tossed over the back of the few chairs within the room was covering him, and someone had tucked him in tight, like a bug in a rug. Even more charmingly, one of the cats took up the rest of the space on Ccinoâs lap. That little calico, Princess. Her back was pressed to the back of Nightmareâs skull and she seemed perfectly content to roll up into a perfect little bun on her masterâs lap.Â
And despite the adorable scene, Killer didnât miss how Ccino seemed to perk up at the mention of his friend. So they were friends, then.Â
âWhat did you tell him?â Ccino asked, his voice quiet. One of his hands was settled gently atop Nightmareâs side, the other was free and tucked by his side.Â
Killer chuckled quietly, sitting on the opposite couch as he plopped his delivery silently to the table before Ccino.Â
âNothing bad. Told him you were busy so I was out on a grocery run. Everyone knows youâre a very busy man.â He teased. Was it okay to tease him right now? Was Ccino going to be mad with him?
Well, if he was, he didnât seem to say anything about it. Instead , he peered at the bag, then smiled a bit.Â
âWell, thank you for running out, my Knight.â He returned, eyelights shifting back down to his charge who rested in the comfort and safety of his lap. âŠKiller had to admit to himself that he was a bit jealous. âWhen I have the chance, I plan to visit our tailor and ensure that our King has a wider wardrobe, since it seems he truly wonât be returning to his previous form anytime soon.âÂ
Right. They were still trying to keep everything under wraps, so Ccino couldnât just send a servant with measurements to see the seamstress halfway across castle grounds. He probably had to go himself. Especially because, as Killer had quickly learned, Nightmare is particular about things. The texture of his meals, the feeling of his clothes, even the temperature of his sheets in the night or the brightness of a candle. Though, he rarely voices his discomfort. Ccino was just a master of noticing the little ways the small King would squirm or tug at his top or squint at a candle just a bit too strong for his newly sensitive eyes. He wanted to learn how to do that so well.Â
His only good news on that front was that Nightmare still made a lot of the same gestures as before. His little, silent commands to Killer. At ease, be alert, with me. He was fond of still being familiar with their own little secret code theyâd unintentionally invented over the years.Â
âIt really wasnât a big deal. Besides, our little Lord said that itâd be better for the city to see the knights are still active, right? With Dust and Horror out of commission for day-trips, Iâve gotta pick up the slack!â he joked, leaning back comfortably into the couch and sighing. âNext time you need a break, we can always try and ask him to supervise a training for us. Maybe itâd make him feel a little better?â he suggested,
Nightmare, small as he was now, still couldnât deny a duty which called for him. Especially, Killer assumed, from his Knights. A little of that old normality would probably be good for him. Make him feel like not much had changed. Even though⊠it definitely had.Â
Ccino smiled a bit at that idea, his hand gently petting Nightmareâs ar. His chest rose up and down ever so gently.Â
âHe cherishes training with all of you so dearly. Maybe he would enjoy a small break from all of these worries.â He agreed quietly.
#new age au#I... honestly had no idea what I was doing here for most of this haha#I knew I wanted to show Dust and how he's developed since arriving (He has complex feelings about having to come up with solutions to peopl#and their problems as well as be standing in the spotlight) and Horror and how he feels a bit adrift but how he'll manage just fine.#Then ofc Cross is having his own little crisis (he does NOT want to be working with these people. He's not a full Knight but he's in a#weird between rank that makes him the same level as the Captain but he's still just another recruit so he feels weird teaching the actual#soldiers? And I've also decided that Cross had a bit of time to train w/ the normal guard after his release (Horror started his training#with them too) but he started to fall into an old pattern he used to get when training w/ X-Gaster. And that got. Spooky. So now he feels#like an outcast and that he isn't qualified to teach these guys anything!) but luckily Rogers is cool.#He was there when Cross was a rookie#even if he was a fake one. And he sees potential and can tell that Cross is a sweet kid (Ccino has high-praise for him too.) so#he comes to his aid! And. Well. he manages to get Cross to talk himself in a circle about it at the very least! He was planning a pep talk#but... eh. it worked out!#Then Killer! He just needs a little fun outing since Cross gave some insight into what else he's been up to. Plus it sets up future events.#(Lust and Cross meeting? Killer not being able to handle a sick and delirious emotional night? Y'know?)#And... yeah! Just a lot of stuff I kinda piled in lol- I'm sure each of these could get a little drabble of their own but i liked compiling#them like this! Plus it made me feel less bad about it only being a glimpse rather than a full scene lol.#Okay!!! Okay. My final statement is that I fell asleep mid-type and woke myself up#fully just because in my hazy dream darkness I thought 'I need to post that drabble' and then snapped awake because i hadn't finished it#lmao-#So!!! Good night!!!#Oh also. Actually my last thing: Yes I did revisit Change in Management because I needed to remember Rogers as a character lmao.#I hope I caught him right? I love Ancha's depictions of him sm and I was very afraid I'd make him sound stale lmao-#OKAY I"M DONE. NIGHT!
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LOOK AT HERRRRRRR <3333333
#i think i forgot the depths of my obsession until she showed up on my laptop screen. she has appeared briefly three times now.#every time so fair i have gone SARAAAAAA!!!!! out loud.#im normal. im normal.#i love my fucked up little wet rat. im obsessed with the way she is a broody assassin. im obsessed with the fact that she becomes the#captain of a time travelling ship.#im obessed with the way shes started out by just being obsessed with a boy she had a crush on in middle school.#to the point that she went on a yacht trip to sleep with him despite the fact that he was in a serious long term relationship#with her sister.#i support women's wrongs.#im obsessd that two years into her castaway adventure she's already doing shit like loading up an exchanged hostage with c4. she's amazing#shes so weird and traumatized and trying to be cool and mysterious so bad.#arrow lb#sara lance#her offputting nature and bisexual swagger have bewitched me.#anyway. fun fact. one of the main reasons i stopped watching legends of tomorrow (her show) and eventually dropped dctv altogether.#is that they finally gave her a long-term love interest. but they decided to make that love interest a second blonde woman with long hair.#and i just couldn't handle that. im sorry miss ava i did like you. but i couldn't take the show smashing two identical barbie dolls togethe#it was too much for me. if you are going to give me queer women on tv who do not look particularly queer. im ok. i can live with it.#but at least give them two different hair colors.#its so petty im sorry.#it would've been fine if they had a fling. but she became one of the main cast i believe.#which is like. bad enough. you give me a superhero time travelling team up show.#and two of the team members are blonde white women. and then you make them kiss. insane decision.#i literally have two action figures of her sitting on my bookshelf lmao. it's literally just her and sam wilson.#oh wait nvm. wonder woman is there but shes a vinyl figure (fot a funko pop) riding a horse.#also also mercy overwatch. who is unfortunately a funko pop.#and also a second mercy overwatch funko pop. but a tiny keychain version from a dear friend. hm. maybe i have a pattern of being obsessed#with fictional blonde women.
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#photo diary#image 1 & 2 - of course these are just cloud images. But a cool pattern of them :0#3 - another word count of game writing... aargh... Still debating about like allowing other people into the game discord or how early#in the process one should do that.. but social things are just so difficult for me lol.. I shall always suffer for my lack of networking an#self promotion skills. 4 - I was forced to get a new phone a few months ago because my beloved phone of like 10 years finally#broke too much. and I always like to go through the emojis and make a little memo with all my favorites. yaay little pictures of things.#5 - I FINALLY finished all the dictionary entries for the game (which has a little dictionary feature in the player's journal to note#any specific terms and keep track of them (like what 'jhevona' or 'avirre'thel' means. or to remember that the world is called Nanyevimi#and the country they're in is Asen. etc. etc.)). There are 75 defined terms so far and it took me a while to do so out of curiosity I put#all the text into a wordcounter thing and lol.. 8000 words isnt that much I guess but the 30 minute reading time is funny to me. 30 minutes#for my little tiny dictionary panel in my quaint little casual visual novel which is not even lore heavy at all. hee hee (though that's mor#like a minute here and there since obv people are not unlocking every term all at once. you complete the dictionary as you talk to people#and hear them mention new concepts over time.).. ANYWAY..#6 - a very soft and beautiful stuffed animal that I did not buy but wanted to at least document their charm.#7 - stimky boye waiting in front of his favorite straw meowring screaming for someone to play with him (he likes to chase the#straw around). 8 - matcha bubble tea my beloved. 9 & 10 & 11 - some cool flowers I saw. also featuring one of my favorites (columbines!)#Anyhow.. as mentioned in the other photo diary post.. I have just been packing and writing mostly.. The evil summer is coming of course#which me and my health issues always dread. Good news though is I finally got my passport in the mail! >:3 huzzah. Now I just need to find#some fellow aromantic asexual living outside the US willing to take one for the team and fake a marriage with me so I can get the#hell out of the country UwU (<joking) (...mostly... as in - definitely NOT my main goal. but if a viable opportunity presented itself I#would of course give it consideration lol). I know that's already highly regulated but I wonder if it's something that will become even mor#locked down as people hunt for any opportunity to flee. People are out here searching for any loophole. Frantically researching their#entire family tree seeing if there's any chance for a citizenship by descent in whatever place will take them. etc. etc. lol#So I wonder if such marriages are a thing that will come up more often. hmm.. ANYWAY..#I have almost all of my stuff packed even though I don't move until another 1-2 months. But that's the point is to have it all sorted early#in the last remaining scraps of ''cooler'' weather so that then I can just relax up until then. I'm going to try doing another scrapbook#/sketchbook this summer as a Mood Boosting effort. Just to find little things to help with the situational political existential dread and#climate woes. So on days it's too hot to function I can just glue little things to pages and doodle lol.. hopefully.. slowly getting things#off my to do list.. I reaaaaaally want to get back to playing games as it's so fun and realxing to me but..rghgh.. 500 other things..
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is it gay to make sure another mans history is passed on?
#labru and otasune...#jesus.#you know how like. crazy powers have to have a power up sequence? thats what im doing rn. gathering my knowledge. and so i have stumbled#upon the mgs4 book. sooooooooooooooooo ?!?!??!?!!?!?? im going to be Autism Powering Up for a while lol. happy that this is an actual book#so i can give an answer when someone asks what ive read recently (i am not answering fanfic. its literature to ME but i havent dropped my#shame too low just yet) but yeah i think im going to make a essay or powerpoint about the THREADS connecting mgs and homestuck its too much#also. i would like to make a list of characters who display a very Clear and textually viable classpect i think that would be fun#i tend to disagree with most assigned classpects im picky about the Patterns#like i saw someone tey to say solid snake is rage WHt are you talking about LMFAO#bro is the most obvious heart guy. like. born to be a machine. is nothing but a human. wants to get to the bottom (hand him his shovel!) of#himself. entrendre intended. swaps identities as a tool. like come on!#btw otacon is blood just like kabru. lineage stories records bonds past experiences.#^see all of this text this is why i call myself a rogue of heart instead of a seer now i fancy a wizards role and all but i cant help but#intake the HEART AND SOUL AND PUSSY creators put into their work and then dole it out on every other pussyful work.#im very busy being homestuck dungeon meshi and mgs brained at the same time i havent had a Special Interest Extravaganza since i was a wee..#16 or so
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we all know that Goku and Vegeta's foil in terms of their divine transformations is literally just Freud's Id vs Ego, right
Like how id is raw instinct with no particular pattern and ego is the conscious command over one's instincts
like how Goku's body moves on its own without any conscious input, and Vegeta still has complete and distinctly conscious autonomy while flooded with immense power he has no experience controlling
like we must have talked about this, right? as a family?
#those chapters are several years old I assume this has been brought up#like instinct and ego definitely have their other fun meanings that apply too but like the core of it is -- I assume -- a direct reference?#I stand by my original breakdown about ego being a scary ugly thing in terms of common definition but also geets claiming to be tapping tha#instinctive destructive patterns but can't revert to it and instead spends the whole fight trying to talk down a man trying to kill him#that is also very definitively Freud's Ego. Command over instinct. The horseback rider in control of the horse etc#Which -- again -- makes it a FANTASTIC contrast to Majin Geets which was a panicked instinctive choice that sacrificed his autonomy#Majin Geets was the horse up until he overpowered Bobidi [insert old joke about horses only have two settings: murder and suic!de]#And ego despite his outward ferality and ferocity is actually calmly and confidently in absolute control of himself and his desires#the illustrated difference between arrogance and confidence which makes the characters calling it a weird ego boost both funny and ironic#media analysis#dbtag
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I just realised the concert I've got tickets for and Vienna Comic Con are all on 3 consecutive days ... that's gonna be one hell of a weekend for suređ
#I'm sure it's gonna be super fun!! but also extremely exhaustingđ#I'm going to see Sabaton! they've been one of my favourite bands for almost a decade but I've never seen them live yet#it'll be my first ever proper concert in general so I'm a bit nervous but also looking forward to it#not sure who I'll bring along (I wouldn't wanna go all alone tbh) since none of my friends that live close by are really into metalđ„Č#worst case I'll probably just drag my mum along and she'll have to put up with the musicđ#and for comic con my sister and I are planning to attend both days that's why I can't use Saturday as rest day#I hope I can at least get another costume finished so I can wear a different one each day#I only have 1 actually wearable cosplay so far and I'm just really slow with all the planning pattern making and buying fabrics#because it stresses me out so much that I'll get something wrong there and waste time and money#the actual sewing is the most enjoyable part for me even though I still have a lot to learn there as well#there's still time until November luckily so we'll see how it goesđ
#I've also been planning for years to join a local Star Wars cosplay club and I hope I finally get to it this year#I'm hoping the people there could maybe give me advice on how to make good patterns where to buy the correct fabrics and so on#my current cosplay (Star Wars imperial bridge crewman) was bought since I wanted it to be really accurate#I've had it since I was 17 and would've never had the skills to sew it on my own back then but I'd love to make something myself next!#if I don't finish anything else in time it will at least be quite comfy to wear though#(only the boots can get a bit heavy after walking around the con area the whole day and my hat is a tad too small but wearable)#idk why I wrote all this into the tags instead of the actual postđ but I'm too lazy to change it now#selnia talks
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i love your bard! riz au so much. he is so tragic as a character for all the reasons of what living in constant danger fear does to your mind. can i ask about his relationship with the other bad kids and the major differences vs canon?
hey I'm glad ur enjoying what's goin on here! I don't have a Lot of it clear in my mind yet bc it is a full class swap of the entire party so some stuff will just. not play out until they do yknow? it is how it is. but I think from the beginning riz's motivation is decently different so he'll just get into it on an entirely different path - he did Not start out a very kind kid. he would be extremely conflict avoidant, he's got the Actor feat, he's stocked up on Disguise Self, he's ready to disappear mid-conversation, anyone who looks like troubles he's steering Clear of. he goes to aguefort not because he wants to be an adventurer but because sklonda was like "this works for you?" and he was like "yeah 's all good :]" (he is about to throw up bc that's where penny went missing)
I'd say he runs into fabian (rogue) first very briefly and they'd mutually be like oh. a guy. and immediately forget each other once they get out of the same like locked classroom they accidentally both hid in. and then during the corn cutie fight fabian would see the way riz react and Not Like It (haha whoa. like looking in a mirror amirite) and go actually I'd rather be a hero (derogatory) than whatever that is that guy's got going on. great surprise for him when they got out and registration's closed and the mirror is now one of his partners in the career-long group project :]
kristen (sorcerer) would be an Insane encounter at first for riz like this is someone who is extremely powerful, not very controlled, and so fucking starved for people to be nice at. riz is cordial to her on the way and she is like Fuck Yeah Friend! please go do paperwork with me I don't know shit from fuck I haven't had proper paperwork since I was like twelve and gay. do you like candies? she then throws ragh through a window for trying to bully gorgug and netting her and gorgug the detention (riz is of course immediately someone else while this is happening) (he shows up again right after like haha sorry that was scary! resolutely not looking at how kristen's face falls at the idea of someone being scared of her again)
riz and gorgug (cleric) get on like house on fire at first in the sense that they're at that point both fake bitches and they know this about each other and acknowledge this with each other implicitly and they're like I'm not poking at what's going on with you if you don't poke at what's going on with me. and then gorgug dies and sees that the god he's been feeding his anger to isn't real (yet) and has his realization that he's been indoctrinated into a cult through the support group he's been to and starts on deprogramming and in that process he starts poking at riz's deal just by proxy of dealing with his own. riz gets vicious about this a bit into it but after the arcade he kinda comes around again. it helps that at the end of sophomore year gorgug becomes the saint of the Inbetween and riz is very much in need of that stop on his way right then
fig (barbarian) on the other hand does Not like riz off the bat (her whole thing is leaning into rage to live her truth without fear) but then being as perceptive as she is soon she's like ohhhh you're just scared. like Really scared and it's ruining your life. and after that she's like I'll just protect you then :] (this is her solution to most things her friends go through) this does not help at first bc riz has picked up the pattern that is if you're protective of him bad things will happen to you. he will have a breakdown about this in sophomore year but it'll get better from there
adaine (artificer) on the Other other hand just straight up doesn't like riz until after the arcade lol. he's on the prep side, he's not socially awkward and he doesn't use that power for anything but being a coward, he lets biz talk at him in the AV club and that means biz never stops fucking talking, and every time adaine raises a complaint all he does is being like "sorry :[" and changing nothing. it's fucked up between them riz tries to appease her by doing nice things but he doesn't address the things she actually complains about so she doesn't take it. she's the person who outright calls him out for not having the backbone to stand up for himself or his party. despite this she never thinks of throwing him out of the party and he does pick up on this. they get better after the arcade and riz apologizing and by junior year adaine's the one handling the tech end of riz's freelance publication
all of this is subjected to change of course I'm mostly keeping things mobile that's where all the fun is hehe. the world is constantly in motion etc but this is kinda how I'm coming into my art atm we'll simply see!
#ask#not art#fh class quangle#there are Some stuff Ive got in mind for riz and the honorary bad kids too like. he managed to slip being noticed by ragh until he gets on#the taping crew for the bloodrush games and ragh kinda latches onto him as like emotional support and riz has Absolutely no idea what to do#he Notices ragh's crush on dayne. he is fully out of his depth. absolutely not his circus but if he doesn't say anything its gonna become#his clown real fast#hes like I should. I should tell fabian and gorgug abt this. theyre the ones playing WHY am I the one he latched onto#(fabian knows the whole time and is like no this is good for ragh and awful for riz it's perfect. let it happen)#(gorgug is fucking busy learning anger management strategies via sport)#and then. theres also baron lmao#like bard!riz is a writer. his thing is narratives and finding meanings in patterns. if he makes up a gf in canada that person would have#a full fledged character sheet with three notebooks worth of backstory lmao#I think bard!riz's flavour of aroace is ''I'm not having a crush on anyone because I'm already in a picture perfect romance story#with a partner that matches my high standards''#and then that partner becomes ''real'' and it's Still a horror story for him. because he doesn't actually want that!#in my mind baron manifests through letters and notes rather than mirrors here bc riz made up that they're his childhood penpal#who he's only gotten to met once in a summer years back and it's beautiful and super cute (he generated this like a learning algorithm)#and then a letter comes in the mail one day like ''hii riz I'm so excited I'm moving to elmville soon! I can't wait to see you again''#canon baron is so beautiful and elegant as a haunting like that is a Metaphor. that is Art#class swap baron in my brain is just straight up like distressing lmao. its Just Bad. riz gukgak's evil school year of paranoia and dread#lmao u can imagine why he looks like he has never slept in his life in the sophomore year design#man my brane is so full... its fun to think abt this :]
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new di x warrior cats
name explanations and more info below :3
basic stuff
-each agency is a clan, not each unit. 14-15 clans would be silly and then we would have some clans with 5 cats and some with 2.
-starpro -> lightclan. i couldnât call them âstarclanâ for obvious reasons. light is somewhat synonymous with star, so iâm going with that.
-cospro -> nightclan. i donât think the cats in warriors know the word âcosmicâ, but cosmic implies cosmos implies night sky, so weâre going with night
-rhyth lin -> rippleclan. ripple is sort of a synonym to rhythmâŠ.? this one was hard
-new di -> fortuneclan. this one is a stretch but neither ânewâ or âdimensionâ have synonyms that really fit a clan name. fortune is something that relates to multiple characters in new di though
-starclan still sort of exists, but the cats do not believe in them the way they do in warriors. they are more of a nursery tale than anything, and select cats (ex: tatsumi) believe in them, but it is not written into their code. medicine cats can still interpret signs, but they do not necessarily think of them as coming from starclan.
-medicine cat forbidden romance is not a thing here
-intermingling of clans is ok and common
-thereâs like. other cats in their clans besides just the enstars cast i assume
cat names/why i chose them
fortuneclan:
knights
-tsukasa -> scarletstar (scarletblossom) . he is the leader of fortuneclan because he is one of the new di reps for the summits. both scarlet and blossom were chosen bc of his last name (scarlet is a red color⊠kinda similar to cherryâŠ. and blossom for the cherry blossom).
-leo -> lionheart. ok this one is kind of cheating because lionheart is already an existing warrior, butâŠcome onâŠ.
-izumi -> silverspring. sora describes his color as silver, and spring is in his first name
-ritsu -> frostmoon. his first name means cold moon according to the wiki so i just rehashed it
-naru -> goldenroar. since she doesnât like her first name i didnât want to use âstormâ, and her last name can be read as âthunderâ but thatâs a little too close to storm? so golden for her hair and roar for her last name
switch
-natsume -> sageeye. a sage is similar to a wizard, and eye is in his first name . also the âdovesongâ mentioned is wataru :)
-tsumugi -> bluewing. he is a bluebird. warrior cats probably wouldnât straight up call a cat âbluebirdâ so i put wing there instead. deputy cause heâs the vp
-sora -> skyspring . sora means sky. spring is in his last name. i could have used âstreamâ instead to differentiate him from sena but i think spring is cuter
mam/df
-madara -> tawnystripe . tawny bc itâs like kind of close to calico if you squint. stripe(s) is in his last name
#my art#enstars#ok so maybe we WOULD have 5 clans bc guess what was announced today#a new agency. and a new unit (or fucking 5? idk)#BUTWHATEVER#um i donât know why i did this it was a joke at first but#then i started getting really into choosing namesâŠ.#like originally it was just gonna be switch but then i was like hmmm⊠what if the agency is the clan#iâve been reading so so much warrior cats iâm about to finish avos and then iâll be caught back up to where i was#when i started this rereading journey last year#so like i have to apply it to my other interests#iâm proud of the names i chose i think theyâre fun#yes leoâs is a cheat but idc#i hope someone else will appreciate this itâs mostly just me doing stuff for fun#i want to do the other units/agencies too but that might be a while cause yall this took#like a week . granted iâm busy rn but god damn picking designs for cats is hard!!#thatâs why so many ended up being tabbies i just canât resist theyâre my favorites iâm definitely not biased#but also realistically tabby is a pretty common pattern so itâs fine#my fave design is naruâs btw i wanted to make her really pretty and i think i did ok#ok iâm going to bed bye#also forgot to mention i wanted to keep the names as close to canon warriors as i could so i had to find words similar to things that#the cats in warriors would know#sage is pushing it i donât think they use sage in medicine . they def donât know what a fortune is either but i donât care
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first art post of the new year!!! granted, i don't share my art here that much anyway, butâ shhh.
hehehehhhooo,, here's something i've been working on for 'bout a month,, albeit not consecutivelyâ took a few,, very very long breaks in between working on this,, but i managed to finish it in the end! am i satisfied with it? .......ehhhh? not completely, but if this took any longer, it might not have seen the light of day, so like. ÂŻ\_(ă)_/ÂŻ.
anyway,, made a little poster for my favorite fic, tommyinnit's services for villains, vigilantes, and various other vagabonds, by @scorpionoesit!!! it's really really good,,, and i've always wanted to make more art for it,, so i decidedâ poster! at least,, that's what it's mean to resemble,,, dkdmkdmdkd.
i will freely admit,, i'm... not the biggest fan of the fan-made logo i tried to design for it,, feels a bit boring, and could definitely have used a bit more pizazz, something to make feel more like the fic itself(what does that mean? you figure that out),,,, butâ again, steam was running low,, dkdnksjs. graphic design is my passion. i do also have other complaints, but i'm afraid i already punched my one-use self-critique card,, oh well,,, dkdnkxjdkd.
regardless,, even with the flaws only i can really see,, this still turned out pretty okay!! hope you enjoy it, mx. scorpio and mx. alibi!!! and i hope everyone else has a wonderful new year!!!!
#my art#dream smp#services for vagabonds#tommyinnit fanart#tommyinnit#i don't wanna try tagging the rest of them so i'm just not gonna <3#anyway wrow i wonder who the skull guy and mysterious shadowy figure are....... could be anyone.#i was gonna try and fit in some sort of hero so i could check all the dots of everyone tommy's help#specifically either dr**m (derogatory) or phil#(was mostly leaning towards phil)#but 1) couldn't figure out a way to make it look good with the current set up#my first thought was to try moving the current characters around a bit; but then it would feel too crowded#my second thought was to have them appear from the smoke; somehow? a smoky figure?#but that only really looked good in sketch form and i didn't have the patience to figure that out properly#and 2) no clue what their designs look like. don't even know what their powers are; yet!#was also wanting to fit fundy in but it didn't work for the first reason#fun rapid fire character design facts: niki has a littol sharp tooth 'cause of the joker stuff!#i originally gave tubbo green eyes;; but i decided blue-green looked cooler#techâ [cough] i mean;; *orion's* cloak has a faint lil orion pattern on can barely see it but it's there i assure you !!!#(i tried my best for his design but i am. not the greatest at outfits;; especially hero/villain ones)#tommy has long hair bc it's *MY* art and *I* say he gets long hair. this definitely isn't canon to vagabonds i just like to do this#<- also why michael and tommy have freckles#tommy has a bit of green in his design(through the patch) due to a theory of mine :D#might have over-rendered the hair a bit but. fuck you i like it#anyway i think that's all i have to say about it? if you've actually read all these tags;;; have a cookie -> đȘ#pretend it's a peanut butter cookie#actually. no pretend it's both. you get two cookies. as a treat.#anyway have a good rest-of-your-day !!!!!!
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I have finally FINALLY got up to the dream scene at the start of the last mabelcorn in kmky and everything is flowing nicely finally, and the scenes and characterisation all are smooth and make sense and I am no longer going over the same establishing scenes like a pedant trying to make them perfect. SUCCESS!
Just have to knock out these next few bits then it's onto unicorn beatdowns, funny hats, pizza parties and loophole heists!
#i am so relieved#i feel a lot happier writing now that im happy with those establishing scenes#they didnt pan out how i originally planned but i think theyre better for it#i kept wanting to make bill and py fight but thats just not what they want to do#and das flavor pups have downgraded themselves from terrifying imposition to mild annoyance with potential for drama down the line#but these things will make everything else make better sense so i dont mind the bits i scrapped#now im cackling to myself writing out the dream scene and yes it will diverge slightly from how it panned out in the show!#because why the hell not#i also have been inundated with ideas for a sequel so im steadily noting down dialogue lines and ideas i want to see#and hopefully i stay on task and don't get too distracted by sequel daydreams#it'll be good tho when it gets there i promise you that#a true healing narrative that doesnt rely on punitive justice and creates a positive outcome without repeating codependant patterns#that we see so often in billford#yes love redeems but love for yourself is important in redeption arcs too and knowing that you can make something good with your own hands#is just the game changer i want to bring to the billford fandom#but anyway thats for later for now im back in action and hopefully on track for finishing the chapter by the end of the month#fingers crossed buds#I'm doing my best so all the folks needing a pick me up after world events get something fun to look forward to#kmky#knowing me knowing you
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find a blorbo (nhl tag game)
RULES: Go through the roster of each NHL team and find at least one player that you can root for.
tagged by @bondedpairs!! when i say too many teams to count and here for the narrative um. i may not have lied. this is not an extensive list of my blorbos but in order to make it not ten thousand years long i made up the rule that i had to do it straight from memory :)
anaheim ducks: as evidenced by recent events i DO like mason mctavish and trevor zegras but i have to honor laura and mention troy terry and beloved goalie gibbie*
boston bruins: oh for sure brad marchand⊠can i say patrice? one of the charlies got traded but i think mcavoy is still there because gryz is gone, brandon carlo is there still i think
buffalo sabres: cozens & thompson, owen power, rasmus dahlin, ukko pekka luukkonen
calgary flames: is chris tanev still here? is markstrom still here?? noah hanifin?? as a last resort iâll say blasty
carolina hurricanes: aho & jarvy & teuvo teravainen & brent burns is still playing maybe? i know sepe got traded
chicago hockey: the bedsy narrative is compelling but ANDREAS ATHANASIOU MY BELOVED reunited with tyler bertuzzi⊠thatâs the real story. also i like foligno
colorado avalanche: gabe landeskog, whatever ross colton & miles wood have going on, natemac + jo, mikko
columbus blue jackets: have long been on the merzlikins train, have been swayed to the darkside of umich boys (brindley, kent johnson, fantilli, blankenburg who is now on nsh)
dallas stars: seggy! mush! roope + miro and otter and robo and wyjo (rip ty dellandrea) and harls! etc.
detroit red wings: MOST players. dilly larks, moritz seider, jv, raymond, rasmussen, kitty, lyon, etc except for k*ne
edmonton oilers: mcdrai, ofc. nugent-hopkins, nursey, rip vinny & skinny
florida panthers: tkachuk, reinhardt, sasha barkov, verhaeghe (is there still?)
los angeles kings: adrian kempe⊠kevin fiala⊠danault⊠quinton byfield & alex turcotte
minnesota wild: kirill, marat, fleury, brodes, fabes, boldy, moose, middsy, spurge⊠godâs perfect idiots
montreal canadiens: going out on a limb here to say martin st. louis but also xhekaj (both), slafkovskĂœ, suzuki, my austrian reinbacher, yes fine cole caufield
nashville predators: MOST BEAUTIFUL D PAIR IN THE WORLD GRADY SKJEI AND ROMAN JOSI!! juuse, evangelista, isnât stamkos there and also someone else who absolutely should not be
new jersey devils: nico⊠tuna (tatar), dawson mercer, siegenthaler, dougie hamilton, yes the hugheses whatever
new york islanders: barzy, zeeker & marty, anders lee, noah dobson lol
new york rangers: mika & chris, lafreniĂšre & kâandre, shesterkin
philadelphia flyers: frosty & beezer and tk and sanny and the new baby michkov and coots and scooty loots and foerster etc etc. you know the Guys
pittsburgh penguins: the two headed monster but also compelled by rutger mcgroarty, and kevin hayes was there!!!
ottawa senators: timmy stĂŒ & brady! josh norris! the evolution of shane pinto! ullmark now and brĂ€nnström and claude giroux and chabot
san jose sharks: ekky, thrun, mario, borde, logan couture, shakir, that other vaguely blond rookie
seattle kraken: brandon tanev, andre burakovsky! grubauer & dâaccord also
st. louis blues: jordan kyrou, nathan walker (is still there?), rob thomas? is parayako still there?
tampa bay lightning: hedman, point, they dumped so many guys after the cup run⊠is kucherov still there or is he in nashville?? anthony cirelli (notable for being made out with by pat maroon)
toronto maple leafs: mitch, jt, willy, alex nylander, kniesy, dewar, et
utah hockey: crouse, keller, tuba
vancouver canucks: quinn, brock, petey, jt, garly, höggy, i want to say dakota johnson, elias lindholm?
vegas golden knights: brandon montour is here now⊠alex pietrangelo, so sorry to one i canât remember who loves the lions it will come back to me
washington capitals: full of love and stupidity. oshie, nicke/ovi, pierre-luc dubois, dowd, vrĂĄna, milano
winnipeg jets: adam lowry!! josh morissey and kc and morgan barron, also vladdy my beloved
tagging @stillfertile + @colap1nto + @songsandswords + @moregraceful if they havenât done it yet, i know they follow at least a couple teams. if anybody else wants to play i love adopting blorbos!!
#it is literally my DREAM to get challenged by someone about how many hockey guys i can name because i am a freak like that#and i make up arguments in my head for fun. please Try Meeeee#me when i wear all of my different crewnecks out & make up an imaginary argument where i have to list five guys from every team⊠ok why not#in doing this i hope i expose so many of you to narratives and also donât show my ass because weâre at the point in the season where i go#âhe got traded WHERE???â & i forget where everyone got moved around 𫥠everyone who watches a game has to deal with me regularly going WAIT#tag games#liv in the replies#this is secretly just a love letter to everyone i follow who got me invested in these narratives. i WILL adopt ur interests &speech pattern#and like. it very much does NOT even come close to reflecting the narratives i have and will be invested in#hated my own rule as soon as i made it but it prevented me from creating an even MORE elaborate set of rules which was like. would you#actually root for this guy playing hockey vs are these all narrative characters so you need to them be able to back it up with a fic#which. given that itâs BLORBO i was like none of them are about to named on the basis of their hockey and also i am a giant hater#if youâre playing the red wings i want you to lose if the red wings are out i cannot guarantee who i will root for. it is up to The Spirit#this took me too long⊠worth it#like I donât know as if iâll ever make a proper pinned post but this is high in contention simply for the fact that i just Talk about Guys#you guys missed the part where i tried to do it in alphabetical order but completely forgot all teams that started with a p and colorado#among other teams and then i had to google â32 nhl teamsâ because i could not for the life of me figure out who i was missing. rip ottawa#which is so funny because i love so many guys on their team. like. this list is such evidence of my BLANKING on the spot under pressure.#*everyone who saw this say stolarz no you didnât. listen i knew ONE of them had gotten traded đ and literally during the pre-season det/tor#game today i heard âstolarzâ and went OH FUCK NO OH NO and wheezed my way here to fix it.
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hyperfixation so powerful itâs actually inspiring me to get back into drawing for the first time in like. four years.
#like i have a vague idea planned out for a project#in high school drawing class i once made a piece that was just my own hands in different positions/holding different things/etc#with patterns around them transitioning into the next hand position#i.e. holding a daisy with the petals blowing off but the petals turn into bubbles popped by my hands drumming with a pencil and pen#and each hand is also drawn in a slightly different method#like one is very bold and clean lines while one is more scribbly and one is stippled#and itâs all black and white ofc i love black and white art#but i love how it turned out like even tho i see a bunch of imperfections and funky bits and awkward areas i adore how it came out#so iâm thinking i could do a similar kind of project using skzâs hands instead of mine#like how cute would that be#and i know that even tho im out of practice i specifically remember the warmups and practices we did in class leading up to this piece#so i can practice properly#and i have hard proof that when i am decently practiced i can make a final product that im satisfied with#so it takes off a lot of the intimidation factor. bc thatâs half the reason i havenât tried drawing in so long#i have super high standards and low skill level so my work will never turn out how i envision it and thatâs too frustrating for me#but i donât have to be scared of that with this! iâve already done it before!!#and even if i donât end up making a final polished work it would be fun to just do the warmups#doing blind / semi-blind contours of skzâs hands#i just gotta wait for a day when iâm free and motivated to dedicate some time and energy to break out my old sketchbook and give it a go
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Was wondering why this particular gith face always feels like it suits baldness best and then I realized it IS in fact Orpheus' face model, Orph just has different unique ears.
Anyway welcome back, dreadwolf.


#he almost had purple-blue eyes but I've wanted to use that pink on *someone*#I have vague plans for a gith from creche y'llek who was the first gith to be shown mercy by ko'kuu#think I might use him for that#blasting him with the agonizing chronic pain beam. sorry#might call him solir which is funny because it's actually the name of a sun god in one of my homebrew campaigns#but that could work for a gith born in the monastery basement of the morninglord's temple#also: cleric. for fun and profit.#realized the orph thing when I also made him yellow RIP oh well. maybe he'll be sympathetic to orpheus' plight finally#not playing him yet I have too many other characters on the docket at the moment but I keep turning his concepts around in my head#so I wanted a visual to go with#doubly glad I didn't go with the spots ko'kuu has because I think Orph has the same ones underneath those tattoos#but I like the concept of recognition as sympathy in that sense: why ko'kuu fought for him; why he might in turn fight for orpheus#hmm#we'll see#I also wanted to see what Xa'rok looked like with these spots on because in my brain they have spots on their neck (more along the sides)#but I wasn't convinced#alas#I also like that one spot pattern with the spots on the chin.#also considered a body 1 gith for this concept but again the faces vex me. I think the only face I like is the first one#I'll have to play Kresh's guardian sometime because she's pretty#I almost gave him that same tattoo because it's fun to see which tattoos go all the way up into the hair that you don't normally see#but I was adamant about leaving his face bare because I NEVER do#oh god I don't want to play a second warlock (lii'r'ai is a warlock) but this guy making a pact in the hopes of mitigating his pain... hmm#unaligned cleric/cleric of morninglord to cleric of ilmater or loviatar (once he learns about them) to warlock could be fun...#my tavs#rook's ramblings
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